lucky

i'm not sure if i believe in luck... but today i'm feeling pretty lucky!
the hubster got offered a new job that i honestly thought had passed him up today! this is good for us and very good for him. i think he's been doubting himself lately and this will hopefully be the boost he needs. we also went and picked up some toddler bedroom stuff that we got a great deal on last week... the more we get and the closer we get to being licensed makes this feel more real.
but i feel luckiest to have my husband... you know the colbie calait and jason mraz song where they say "lucky i'm in love with my best friend"... i truly am. my husband is an all-star (even on the days he makes me want to rip out my hair). he gets a new job and thanks me for telling him about the posting i saw... he tells me i'm beautiful every day and even though i don't always belive him, it doesn't hurt to hear... and possibly most important through this wait he tells me what great parents we'll be. now don't get me wrong i know we'll be far from perfect and i know he probably lays it on a little thick cause i'm his wife but i still feel very lucky to have him around to do so...
congrats again, babe... i love you

moving along...

things are moving along quite nicely with our licensing process. we have a meeting later this week to go over what we need to finish up with our application and to start scheduling the home study! (i'm not gonna lie, no matter how many people tell me that the homestudy will be fine and that it's not as big of a deal as i'm making it i am still n e r v o u s!) i've been passing time by trying to gather as much information about foster care and adoption as possible and by talking out stuff with the hubs. he's just as excited as i am for this to be moving along and i get the chance to fall in love with him once again when we talk about how we want to raise children. oh! and i get to shop! yes, i'm one of "those girls" i love shopping! even more so when it's not for me.

other than that i've been preparing for thanksgiving (first time at my house and mom is staying the night to help cook!) and starting to sneak in a christmas decoration here and there... ok, maybe i'm sneaking in everything but the tree but still!
well, if i'm not back here to wish you all a happy thanksgiving, i hope it is a great one filled with love!

xoxo

wow moment!

i just had a major wow moment and not in a good way! last night i went to a party with my fam and had a blast, then pictures were posted today and i saw the effects of the pounds that have been creeping up on the scale :(
so instead of crying about it i'm going to get up off my fluffier than usual butt and do something about it! (ok, so maybe i cried about it a little, but now i'm doing something about it)

aaannndddd i want you guys to hold me accountable.
so if anyone has any tips of helpful suggestions please feel free to share!
thanks all!

my twitter friends are awesome!

seriously, if you guys only knew how inspiring all of you are!
the process of becoming a foster parent is long... the process of accepting that the hubs and i may never have children of our own was longer.
every day i know i have a group of people that understand where i'm coming from.
and that i have someone to laugh, cry, hope, be angry, be silly and wait with...
and i am so thankful for that! i share your guys' stories with my husband because as well as our families and friends mean, sometimes they just don't get it... you all get it.

so, i just wanted to say thank you!

Patience is a Virtue... aka oompa loompa's are taunting me

and apparently i am not that virtuous...lol
oh my goodness y'all, i have lost all patience lately. i used to be a very patient person, it was one of my best qualities, i boasted about my patience and understanding and blah, blah, blah...
then, i decided i wanted children (correction: have always wanted children, decided i was ready for them) and all patience went out the window.
i'm like the little brat from willy wonka... BUT daddy i want a baby and i want it RIGHT NOW!!!! (i can here the infertility oompa loompas in the background now... oompa loompa doopity dee the one thing you aren't getting right now is a babyyyyy)
seriously guys, while the hubs and i were doing our foster care training i was fine, i was occupied. now we're waiting on our cpr certifications before we can continue and i'm going crazy!
i'll do good keeping myself busy and trying to focus on the holidays coming up and then a christmas commercial comes on with a happy family opening presents and everyone's hugging and i go all golden egg again...
i think i need a hobby to keep me occupied... maybe i'll look into making candy