tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76359853547263612642024-03-19T01:41:22.972-07:00Hope Like Fireworkshope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-53855356326087969282011-10-07T06:20:00.000-07:002011-10-07T06:35:48.721-07:00catching up...ok lil bit is over 4 months old now, and as you can tell we've been busy!<br />he is great! developmentally he's either on track or advanced in all areas, which to be honest is almost the opposite of what we were told to expect. baby giggles fill the house and our families just love him to pieces.<br />we still have no idea where the case is going, but if it leads to us being his family forever it will be a family filled with love, joy and strength. the thought of him going home, makes me cry. the thought of him not getting to go home makes me cry too.<br />to be honest sometimes i wonder what god's plan is for this situation, but i'm trying my best to have faith that everything will work out.<br />i'm trying to become more active in the foster parent community. i think the support and understanding i could receive from other families in situations similar to ours would be beneficial.<br />i think my hub is in denial about the fact that lil bit may still return home to his mom and dad. it's difficult when we hear from the workers that he probabaly won't be returning home, but we know better than to believe anything until it's final.<br />so, for now i spend my days taking as many pictures as possible and making as many wonderful memories as i can in case one day he goes back to his mom and dad. i spend the other half making sure every piece of clothing, toy etc sent from his mom and dad stay in perfect condition in case he does stay with us so that he can see how loved is. the thought that if he goes home he might not know who i am or that i even existed terrifies me, how is it healthy to love someone so much, knowing that there might come a day i will never get to see my lil bit again?<br />sorry for this post being scattered and for ending on a sad note, but that's honestly the undertone of most of my days.<br />hugs and kisses,<br />one confused foster mamahope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-43192152705534548482011-06-19T11:01:00.001-07:002011-06-19T11:10:12.163-07:00the guiltI'm a little surprised at the amount of guilt i feel throughout this whole process. Ok, I'm a lot surprised. My hub is the same way. We aren't celebrating Fathers' Day, we're celebrating Foster Father's Day... It just feels weird to him and me too a little. Like when Lil Bit goes on his visits with his mom and dad: I don't get to go and for safety reasons, I can't even be the one who drops him off. So someone we don't know comes and picks him up, takes him to visit with his parents (whom we never met) and a visit supervisor (another person we don't know) and then he's brought back to our house. Not a word on how the vist goes. And I hate it. Every visit day I get anxious and then the guilt sets in... Who am I to be nervous about Lil Bit? This must be what his parents feel on a daily basis, he's living with people they've never met. Lil Bit's new case worker is coming to meet him this week (this is where I imagine them shaking hands and the caseworker introducing himself to Lil Bit) so I'm hoping to have some sort of information after that. I just want to have an idea of what is going on with his case. I've never done this before so I have no idea of what to expect and all the while I've got this sweet little man to worry over.<br />You see, half of my guilt is what if he stays with us forever and doesn't know his birth parents. The other half is what if he goes home? I will be crushed, but do I have the right to feel that way? I worry will his parents make sure he gets his medicine and will they figure out how he likes to be held? HELLO? His mom must be thinking the same things right now!<br />Aaah the guilt... someone make it stop, please?hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-58505549933695396662011-06-11T06:36:00.000-07:002011-06-11T06:51:41.853-07:00the "other man"I always <em>knew </em>that when I became a (foster) parent I would seamlessly share time with my husband and our child. How could I not show the man of my dreams, who has been there and supported me from day one, how much I love and appreciate him on a daily basis?<br /><br /><br /><br /><p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 168px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5616957289843502530" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjise_cWuvd9ErdJv5jQhgRf8Yv4GiV3eauDV1UGHJHufdQEEsxXLga7xXZ0QTe_xhiYNS6n6Sdsx1MvFWggwMuUYzMHkeiiJh_i3tnlUdHRDOlRovhbT9TIC2058KxpImA7UD54JdDzWo/s200/lil+bit+hand.jpg" /></p><br /><p align="center">this is how.</p><br /><p align="left">Lil bit is officially the "other man" in my life. Time that was once spent cuddling with my husband is now spent scooping up <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">lil</span> bit for "just one more" snuggle before bed. I can't help myself... Once that tiny hand reaches up in the air I feel like I <em>have</em> to pick him up, even if he's sleeping. Movie nights with the hub have turned into watching previews and falling asleep because the baby is. And my camera is out at all times, so the hand that was once free to hold my husbands is now busy snapping as many pictures of the baby as possible.</p><br /><p align="left">Hubs takes it all wonderfully, though. He is just as aware as I am that Lil Bit might not be with us forever or anywhere near it. He also makes sure Lil Bit knows just how loved he is for as long as he is with us. Which is indescribable.</p><br /><p align="left">Ok enough with the mushy gushy, but you have to admit (other than your own children's of course) that is THE cutest little hand you've ever seen.<br /><br /></p>hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-64814015440237604912011-06-05T09:37:00.000-07:002011-06-05T09:41:03.723-07:00CourtLearned that court has been extended again! If this is how long it takes to decide if Lil Bit stays in foster care or not, I can only imagine we're in for a long ride.<br />Lil Bit steals a bigger piece of my heart every day. It scares me how much I care for this itty bitty man. Lots of Dr's appointments and what not scheduled for this week so, if he stays with us, it'll be a busy one.<br />Still praying more than ever over him and hoping for the best outcome, whatever that my be.hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-55873894969718621882011-06-03T09:34:00.000-07:002011-06-03T09:43:37.217-07:00AnxiousThat's the best word to describe me right now. I am a major control freak, and right about now nothing feels like it's under control. I've done pretty good so far waiting on blood work results, and to hear about court dates and what not, but today it is just weighing on me so heavily.<br />I think it's because it's the end of the week, so most likely I'll be getting information today or having to wait until Monday. At least the rest of this week I could say "maybe tomorrow" but now if I don't hear anything the weekend will be pure torture. I just want to know what's going on so I can deal with it.<br />Sorry for the whine session, all. I'll be sure to keep everyone updated!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-36594719367369530922011-05-28T12:01:00.000-07:002011-05-28T12:13:58.814-07:00lil' bittalk about a whirlwind! on monday the hubs and I called our coordinator to discuss accepting placements... on wednesday we received a call about a newborn ready to come home from the hospital. as in any foster situation, we aren't sure if the result will be reunification or him being placed in adoptive status, but the worker from placement wanted him to go to a dually licensed home. i had to call hubs to get his opinion and during the time it took for him to get back to me another home was found for lil bit... BUT they weren't positive they were ready to adopt so the worker called us back! lil bit came home that night and he is PERFECT! the hub and I are definitely still adjusting to caring for a newborn, but if I had to guess I'd say he's one of the easier one's to handle (i literally just knocked on wood for saying that, if you love me you'll knock on wood too... just in case). as of right now, we don't know where the case is heading...<br />But I will say the amount of love I have for this tiny boy is enough to last a lifetime, if the opportunity arises.<br /><br />I just want to thank lil bit for making my heart fuller than it has ever been, and ask God to watch over him and let what is the best for him be the result of this situation.<br /><br /><3hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-72704076309314734342011-05-19T10:52:00.000-07:002011-05-19T10:55:35.288-07:00be calmthat is my new mantra and it's actually starting to work.<br />the hubs is starting to come around and actually talk about what he's feeling rather than just say no.(let's hear it for the boy) in fact based on our most recent conversations, i'm pretty sure we'll be accepting placements again soon. the only thing i'm not looking forward to is discussing this with our home coordinator. she was kind of rude to us over the phone the last time we spoke and it left noth hubs and i with sour feelings towards her. ah well, guess when the time comes i'll just be calm.<br />any other advice?hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-60865776113477997062011-05-15T17:46:00.000-07:002011-05-15T18:01:47.536-07:00so what's next?The boys were only with us for the weekend, they arrived on friday and were placed with a relative monday evening. I am thrilled the boys got to go to a safe, familiar home.<br />I am not so thrilled that my husband doesn't know if he wants to foster any more.<br />I get that it was hard (we knew it would be)<br />I get that it was heart breaking when they left and didn't want to (we knew it would be)<br /><br />I'm pretty thrown that he's so upset and making such a decision so quickly.<br />I'm doing what I've become accustomed to: preparing myself for the worst.<br />I've already mourned the fact that I may never have a biological child.<br />Now I feel like I need to mourn that I may never be a mother period.<br />You see, it's not that my husband no longer wants children. It's that now he wants biological children more than ever. He wants to start TTC again. We already did that for 2 years. 2 long, heartbreaking, tiresome, faith questioning, relationship testing years. But, those years were also hopeful and full of dreams and magical.<br /><br />I'm feeling just about every emotion possible right now: sad, scared, angry, hopeful, anxious, excited... the list goes on and on.<br />pray for us...hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-54475749501234992662011-05-08T03:19:00.001-07:002011-05-08T03:19:06.192-07:001st PlacementOur first placement has happened! two boys: ''boots'' is 3 and so active! ''baby jaguar'' is 21 months and a little shy but has the sweetest smile i've ever seen.<br>the past two days have been rough, i'm not gonna lie. there's been lots of tears (myself included) and a huge lack of sleep for everyone. my husband has been so supportive during my lack of composure (he's been working early mornings so i've been left w/ night time duty on my own).<br>i've been having a lot of second thoughts about this these past two days, but i've been told that comes w/ the territory. it's not my goal to scare anyone away from fostering at all, this is just new to me and i've always tried to be honest w/ my feelings here.<p>happy mother's day to all the moms out there and to everyone who isn't a mother yet and struggles with today, a huge hug and a moment of recognization for how strong you really are!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-519953667449719702011-05-06T12:12:00.001-07:002011-05-06T12:18:16.746-07:00I am the worst waiter ever...and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> not talking about the nice person who brings you your food at a restaurant.<br />We've been licensed for a month today. Only a month and already every time the phone rings I think this has got to be the foster agency! (also I only found out a few days ago that they <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">could've</span> called anytime between then and now. I thought there was a final meeting we needed to attend.)<br />Now, don't get me wrong I know it could still be months before a child comes into care that we'd be a good fit for. I get that. I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">just</span> thought that <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'd</span> be better at waiting than I am. I am not a good waiter.hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-32544860989971625982011-05-01T17:52:00.000-07:002011-05-01T18:00:56.759-07:00so close, but still feels so farok all, wednesday is FINALLY our for real for real final inspection before our file gets sent over to placement.<br />it was actually a miscommunication on our behalf that prolonged the meeting. oops!<br />wednesday has never felt so close (SO much to do!) and so far away (so much happening in between)! to be totally honest i have no idea how long it will be until a child is placed in our home, and even then we won't know what the permanency plan is right away.<br />but i can't stop myself from thinking "this might be the last birthday party i have to show up at without a child" or "maybe by next [insert nearest holiday] we'll have kids around" i even had to stop myself from buying a clearance toddler halloween costume the other day... it was NOT easy.<br />but, hopefully after wednesday we'll have some kind of concrete answer about something. i just want something to hold ontohope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-3294809222377830792011-04-16T07:07:00.000-07:002011-04-16T07:12:01.660-07:00back to waitingi feel like were back to another waiting game. this time we're waiting for our home coordinator to contact us to do the review inspection of our home and send our info over to placement. i thought for sure she'd call this week. she didn't. BUT, i won't let it get to me! soon there will be children in our home, and even if they don't stay forever we will have made a difference in their lives! oh! and i'm waiting for something else. i won a copy of adoption nation by adam pertman over on adoptivemomma.com 's blog! i'm sure it will be good reading (as her blog is) and help pass some time in the waiting game :D have a great weekend everyone!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-56567236347958587002011-04-06T19:27:00.000-07:002011-04-06T19:32:01.947-07:00we're licensed!we did it! we are officially licensed foster parents! apparently from here there is a transfer conference where they send all of our info over to the worker that will be working with us from now on, then she will contact us to set up a meeting and do a walk through of the house to make sure everything is still safe and up to par, and then our file gets sent out to "placements" meaning we could be called for a placement in our home. based on how long things have taken so far, i'm guessing this will take at least a month. but i can't even explain how excited i am! i can't wait for you all to take this next step with us! eeeek! now time to go celebrate!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-42280136901665465492011-03-15T13:33:00.000-07:002011-03-15T13:39:24.722-07:00still waitingsorry to be gone so long and not have good news once i returned.<br />actually i kind of have no news.<br />we're still waiting.<br />in fact when we thought we were waiting before, we weren't.<br />at about the time i thought we were half way through the average 3 month wait to hear if we're licensed we had some more paper work to do. we got through it fairly easily and i was all oh i bet we're going to find out sooner than most people do. then the girl that's been doing our homestudy says ok, now we start the long wait.<br />oops thought i was already there. so now we're just hanging out waiting to see where things are heading. i'm not on here much but feel free to follow me on twitter cause most of my ideas come across in 140 characters or less anyways ;) @fireworks_hopehope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-55384265153857709992011-01-29T05:35:00.000-08:002011-01-29T05:42:19.166-08:00i've been sicksoooooo sooooo sick.<br />and it's really testing my patience with everything! hubs keeps reminding me that all of this will be so worth it in the end and i know he's right, but man i wish we could catch a break somewhere. there was a minor road bump in our application process (it's fixed now, just some peperwork stuff) but with me feeling the way i had been and other things going wrong (enough family drama to go around) and some financial issues that are taking a little longer to work themselves out than i thought (ok really like a week longer than i thought, i told you i'm sick: i'm whiny) i was sure this meant we weren't getting licensed.<br />so here we are waiting to find out if we're approved and in the meantime i'm getting plenty of rest so i'll be feeling all better if we are approved and it's time to care for some littles :)hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-644932051239985222011-01-15T05:34:00.001-08:002011-01-15T05:39:29.125-08:00and now we wait...it's official, the hubs and i have done everything on our part of the licensing process.<br />so for now we just wait to see if we're approved.<br />um, it feels kinda weird.<br />i'm usually a pretty goal oriented person, so having to just sit and wait without anything else we can do is odd for me. our home study assesor said we may have a couple more questions to answer and that by the end of april we should know for sure what's going on.<br />now i need to find somwthing to keep us busy until then.<br />(if we do get licensed and have children with us and i complain about never having enough time to do anything, remind that i said something like this)hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-34440311829988364812011-01-08T05:56:00.000-08:002011-01-08T06:03:41.594-08:00home makeoveri'm not sure if it's the weather, being stuck inside all day, or the fact that our final homestudy visit is coming up but i have this sudden urge to clean and rearrange my entire house. suddenly, nothing looks right to me. there are pictures that should be hung, couches that should be moved, our tv is in the wrong place, everything needs rearranged. so, that's what i'm doing this weekend. i'm heading home to do a thorough cleaning and rearranging. and i love love love how it feels to clean and rearrange the rooms in your house. i'm at work right now weriously excited to go home and clean. i even know what cleaning clothes i'm going to put on. and i'm thinking of making a cleaning list on pandora while i'm at work! it's ok, you can laugh at me. but, wanting to clean is a very very rare thing for me (when my mom finds out what i'm doing she'll probably be knocking on my front door to see if i have a fever, and my husband might pass out). don't get me wrong i do it, i just usually whine the whole time.<br /><br />well, all by the end of the week everything that hubs and i have to do for the licensing process <em>should</em> be done... then we wait to see if we are approved.<br />meh, makes me nervous.<br /><br />well, while i'm cleaning i'll be thinking of you all! hope you have a fabulous weekend!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-15435731209096232082010-12-31T13:35:00.000-08:002010-12-31T13:39:15.227-08:00goodbye 2010Dear 2010,<br />it's been real. i learned a lot about myself, and my realtionship this year. it wasn't easy, nor was it how i thought things would turn out but thank you. thank you for showing me that even if my husband and i can't have children we will be a family. thank you for showing me that i have friends and family that will love and cherish our future children no matter how they join our family. thank you for testing my faith and making me realize it's still there. but mostly thank you for hope. we needed it.<br /><br />here's to 2011hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-56779917677197532212010-12-26T18:50:00.000-08:002010-12-26T18:59:01.256-08:00christmas is over...i'm so sad christmas is over! i had a blast, but in the back of my mind there was this lurking stress. i don't want to spend too much time complaining, but there's been a lot going on and i'm worried that if i don't take care of some of it soon, it's going to get in the way of finishing up the licensing procedure... not that we won't be able to get it done, we just want to get there asap!<br />ok, enough complaining!<br /><br />christmas was awesome! loved spending time with my family, had tons of good food, and lots of time to be lazy.<br />oh! and sorry if i've been sucking at responding to comments, i thought it was supposed to notify me when i got them, but i haven't figured it out yet!<br />hope everyone had a good holiday!<br /><br />and i promise my next post will be exciting, maybe even with a pic of the kids room we've been working on!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-23635048679197515502010-12-17T19:09:00.000-08:002010-12-17T19:19:30.399-08:00in the midst of the holiday madnessI feel like Christmas is totally sneaking up on me this year!<br />Don't get me wrong, presents have been purchased, the halls have been decked and some cookies have been baked, but we've had so much stuff going on with trying to get our foster to adopt license that i just now realized how close Christmas really is!<br />I'm not gonna lie, I'm more excited about how far we're coming along in the licensing process than I am Christmas this year. (if you know me, you know how big of a deal this is)<br />But, the hubs and I have decided that while it's great we're so excited for this and we know there's still a lot to be done for it, we need to take a moment to enjoy the holidays.<br />I hope amid the madness of the season, everyone reading this takes a moment to do the same.<br />Whether you're celebrating a winter holiday this year or not, I hope everyone takes a moment to look around and find something that finds them genuinely happy and focus on that for a little while.hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-18301925647361211182010-12-13T17:36:00.000-08:002010-12-13T17:42:12.540-08:00dun dun dun... the homestudyso last week was our first homestudy visit, there will be two more and the fire inspection.<br />it. was.<br /><br /><br />so easy! seriously i don't wanna jinx us but so far, so good. the questions were exactly like i had expected, the hubs and i both felt at ease and we're actually looking forward to the next visit. due to the holidays we're not sure when our 3rd visit will be or when we'll be able to set up the fire inspection but, i'll be sure to keep everyone updated :)hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-38372069160116491922010-11-30T16:29:00.001-08:002010-11-30T16:36:23.358-08:00luckyi'm not sure if i believe in luck... but today i'm feeling pretty lucky!<br />the hubster got offered a new job that i honestly thought had passed him up today! this is good for us and very good for him. i think he's been doubting himself lately and this will hopefully be the boost he needs. we also went and picked up some toddler bedroom stuff that we got a great deal on last week... the more we get and the closer we get to being licensed makes this feel more real.<br />but i feel luckiest to have my husband... you know the colbie calait and jason mraz song where they say "lucky i'm in love with my best friend"... i truly am. my husband is an all-star (even on the days he makes me want to rip out my hair). he gets a new job and thanks me for telling him about the posting i saw... he tells me i'm beautiful every day and even though i don't always belive him, it doesn't hurt to hear... and possibly most important through this wait he tells me what great parents we'll be. now don't get me wrong i know we'll be far from perfect and i know he probably lays it on a little thick cause i'm his wife but i still feel very lucky to have him around to do so...<br />congrats again, babe... i love youhope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-49479264562211858762010-11-20T05:20:00.000-08:002010-11-20T05:28:19.844-08:00moving along...things are moving along quite nicely with our licensing process. we have a meeting later this week to go over what we need to finish up with our application and to start scheduling the home study! (i'm not gonna lie, no matter how many people tell me that the homestudy will be fine and that it's not as big of a deal as i'm making it i am still n e r v o u s!) i've been passing time by trying to gather as much information about foster care and adoption as possible and by talking out stuff with the hubs. he's just as excited as i am for this to be moving along and i get the chance to fall in love with him once again when we talk about how we want to raise children. oh! and i get to shop! yes, i'm one of "those girls" i love shopping! even more so when it's not for me.<br /><br />other than that i've been preparing for thanksgiving (first time at my house and mom is staying the night to help cook!) and starting to sneak in a christmas decoration here and there... ok, maybe i'm sneaking in everything but the tree but still!<br />well, if i'm not back here to wish you all a happy thanksgiving, i hope it is a great one filled with love!<br /><br />xoxohope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-22280796088934033522010-11-14T18:07:00.000-08:002010-11-14T18:11:18.109-08:00wow moment!i just had a major wow moment and not in a good way! last night i went to a party with my fam and had a blast, then pictures were posted today and i saw the effects of the pounds that have been creeping up on the scale :(<br />so instead of crying about it i'm going to get up off my fluffier than usual butt and do something about it! (ok, so maybe i cried about it a little, but now i'm doing something about it)<br /><br />aaannndddd i want you guys to hold me accountable.<br />so if anyone has any tips of helpful suggestions please feel free to share!<br />thanks all!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7635985354726361264.post-81323796286093442132010-11-09T15:29:00.000-08:002010-11-09T15:37:23.627-08:00my twitter friends are awesome!seriously, if you guys only knew how inspiring all of you are!<br />the process of becoming a foster parent is long... the process of accepting that the hubs and i may never have children of our own was longer.<br />every day i know i have a group of people that understand where i'm coming from.<br />and that i have someone to laugh, cry, hope, be angry, be silly and wait with...<br />and i am so thankful for that! i share your guys' stories with my husband because as well as our families and friends mean, sometimes they just don't get it... you all get it.<br /><br />so, i just wanted to say thank you!hope like fireworkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13255926174282130354noreply@blogger.com1