so close, but still feels so far

ok all, wednesday is FINALLY our for real for real final inspection before our file gets sent over to placement.
it was actually a miscommunication on our behalf that prolonged the meeting. oops!
wednesday has never felt so close (SO much to do!) and so far away (so much happening in between)! to be totally honest i have no idea how long it will be until a child is placed in our home, and even then we won't know what the permanency plan is right away.
but i can't stop myself from thinking "this might be the last birthday party i have to show up at without a child" or "maybe by next [insert nearest holiday] we'll have kids around" i even had to stop myself from buying a clearance toddler halloween costume the other day... it was NOT easy.
but, hopefully after wednesday we'll have some kind of concrete answer about something. i just want something to hold onto

back to waiting

i feel like were back to another waiting game. this time we're waiting for our home coordinator to contact us to do the review inspection of our home and send our info over to placement. i thought for sure she'd call this week. she didn't. BUT, i won't let it get to me! soon there will be children in our home, and even if they don't stay forever we will have made a difference in their lives! oh! and i'm waiting for something else. i won a copy of adoption nation by adam pertman over on adoptivemomma.com 's blog! i'm sure it will be good reading (as her blog is) and help pass some time in the waiting game :D have a great weekend everyone!

we're licensed!

we did it! we are officially licensed foster parents! apparently from here there is a transfer conference where they send all of our info over to the worker that will be working with us from now on, then she will contact us to set up a meeting and do a walk through of the house to make sure everything is still safe and up to par, and then our file gets sent out to "placements" meaning we could be called for a placement in our home. based on how long things have taken so far, i'm guessing this will take at least a month. but i can't even explain how excited i am! i can't wait for you all to take this next step with us! eeeek! now time to go celebrate!

still waiting

sorry to be gone so long and not have good news once i returned.
actually i kind of have no news.
we're still waiting.
in fact when we thought we were waiting before, we weren't.
at about the time i thought we were half way through the average 3 month wait to hear if we're licensed we had some more paper work to do. we got through it fairly easily and i was all oh i bet we're going to find out sooner than most people do. then the girl that's been doing our homestudy says ok, now we start the long wait.
oops thought i was already there. so now we're just hanging out waiting to see where things are heading. i'm not on here much but feel free to follow me on twitter cause most of my ideas come across in 140 characters or less anyways ;) @fireworks_hope

i've been sick

soooooo sooooo sick.
and it's really testing my patience with everything! hubs keeps reminding me that all of this will be so worth it in the end and i know he's right, but man i wish we could catch a break somewhere. there was a minor road bump in our application process (it's fixed now, just some peperwork stuff) but with me feeling the way i had been and other things going wrong (enough family drama to go around) and some financial issues that are taking a little longer to work themselves out than i thought (ok really like a week longer than i thought, i told you i'm sick: i'm whiny) i was sure this meant we weren't getting licensed.
so here we are waiting to find out if we're approved and in the meantime i'm getting plenty of rest so i'll be feeling all better if we are approved and it's time to care for some littles :)

and now we wait...

it's official, the hubs and i have done everything on our part of the licensing process.
so for now we just wait to see if we're approved.
um, it feels kinda weird.
i'm usually a pretty goal oriented person, so having to just sit and wait without anything else we can do is odd for me. our home study assesor said we may have a couple more questions to answer and that by the end of april we should know for sure what's going on.
now i need to find somwthing to keep us busy until then.
(if we do get licensed and have children with us and i complain about never having enough time to do anything, remind that i said something like this)

home makeover

i'm not sure if it's the weather, being stuck inside all day, or the fact that our final homestudy visit is coming up but i have this sudden urge to clean and rearrange my entire house. suddenly, nothing looks right to me. there are pictures that should be hung, couches that should be moved, our tv is in the wrong place, everything needs rearranged. so, that's what i'm doing this weekend. i'm heading home to do a thorough cleaning and rearranging. and i love love love how it feels to clean and rearrange the rooms in your house. i'm at work right now weriously excited to go home and clean. i even know what cleaning clothes i'm going to put on. and i'm thinking of making a cleaning list on pandora while i'm at work! it's ok, you can laugh at me. but, wanting to clean is a very very rare thing for me (when my mom finds out what i'm doing she'll probably be knocking on my front door to see if i have a fever, and my husband might pass out). don't get me wrong i do it, i just usually whine the whole time.

well, all by the end of the week everything that hubs and i have to do for the licensing process should be done... then we wait to see if we are approved.
meh, makes me nervous.

well, while i'm cleaning i'll be thinking of you all! hope you have a fabulous weekend!