I am the worst waiter ever...

and I'm not talking about the nice person who brings you your food at a restaurant.
We've been licensed for a month today. Only a month and already every time the phone rings I think this has got to be the foster agency! (also I only found out a few days ago that they could've called anytime between then and now. I thought there was a final meeting we needed to attend.)
Now, don't get me wrong I know it could still be months before a child comes into care that we'd be a good fit for. I get that. I just thought that I'd be better at waiting than I am. I am not a good waiter.

still waiting

sorry to be gone so long and not have good news once i returned.
actually i kind of have no news.
we're still waiting.
in fact when we thought we were waiting before, we weren't.
at about the time i thought we were half way through the average 3 month wait to hear if we're licensed we had some more paper work to do. we got through it fairly easily and i was all oh i bet we're going to find out sooner than most people do. then the girl that's been doing our homestudy says ok, now we start the long wait.
oops thought i was already there. so now we're just hanging out waiting to see where things are heading. i'm not on here much but feel free to follow me on twitter cause most of my ideas come across in 140 characters or less anyways ;) @fireworks_hope

and now we wait...

it's official, the hubs and i have done everything on our part of the licensing process.
so for now we just wait to see if we're approved.
um, it feels kinda weird.
i'm usually a pretty goal oriented person, so having to just sit and wait without anything else we can do is odd for me. our home study assesor said we may have a couple more questions to answer and that by the end of april we should know for sure what's going on.
now i need to find somwthing to keep us busy until then.
(if we do get licensed and have children with us and i complain about never having enough time to do anything, remind that i said something like this)

Patience is a Virtue... aka oompa loompa's are taunting me

and apparently i am not that virtuous...lol
oh my goodness y'all, i have lost all patience lately. i used to be a very patient person, it was one of my best qualities, i boasted about my patience and understanding and blah, blah, blah...
then, i decided i wanted children (correction: have always wanted children, decided i was ready for them) and all patience went out the window.
i'm like the little brat from willy wonka... BUT daddy i want a baby and i want it RIGHT NOW!!!! (i can here the infertility oompa loompas in the background now... oompa loompa doopity dee the one thing you aren't getting right now is a babyyyyy)
seriously guys, while the hubs and i were doing our foster care training i was fine, i was occupied. now we're waiting on our cpr certifications before we can continue and i'm going crazy!
i'll do good keeping myself busy and trying to focus on the holidays coming up and then a christmas commercial comes on with a happy family opening presents and everyone's hugging and i go all golden egg again...
i think i need a hobby to keep me occupied... maybe i'll look into making candy